Been a while since I’ve written anything in here, but that could be about to change! So just wanted to write and post from my iPad and see how easy it is and if it worked!

Now to go and see if this will work!

I woke up yesterday morning to the news that Richard had “had a bit of a bingle with a car” while tiding to work. Bit of a bingle? He ended up in hospital in the emergency department after being taken there by ambulance! He will be fine but it’s still not the way I like to be woken up. His dad’s message was that he had broken his wrist and was concussed and that they would be keeping him in observation for a few hours. So I got up and had the quickest shower ever, a piece of toast and jumped in the car and went to find my boy.

I had no idea what state I’d find him in. I expected to be taking him home in  a few hours so was thinking he’d be sitting up in bed with pain relief while he waited for his wrist to be done. What I found was a shock. When they brought him back from x-ray, he was lying on the bed, with a neck brace on (as a precaution)and his face didn’t look too pretty. He was awake and happy to hear my voice (as I was talking to his mum on the phone). All I wanted to do was give him a big hug and I felt like I didn’t know where I could touch him.

We waited around the hospital all day, with me moving the car every two hours )in a bid not to get a parking ticket!). As he wasn’t going to be able to see an orthopedic surgeon until the following day, they were going to reset his wrist a bit to take away some of the pain.  His parents had found a highly recommended hand/wrist surgeon and had organised for Richard to see him the next morning and he’d operate on him that afternoon. So after they reset his arm, we were waiting around to be discharged so I could take my poor tired, hungry and sore boy home. We were eventually discharged just after 8:30 last night.

Which brings us to now. It’s almost 4am and I feel so lonely. I have my boy in bed with me but I’ve never felt so alone. I don’t feel as though I can cuddle up to him and that’s all I want to do. So instead I’m downstairs in the dark, crying my eyes out and typing my heart out in an attempt to clear my head and then try and get some sleep. The seriousness of today scares me and my biggest fear is losing him and all the things we have planned. As I went back to sleep this morning after he’d left for work, that was the thought that was in my head, ‘the only thing I hate about him riding to work is that it increases his chances of being in an accident’. Little did I know one has already happened….and reasonably close to home.

Richard was riding down one of the side streets to get to the bike path when there was a car driving very slowly. So he overtook them on the right (as you do) when they spotted the street they wanted to turn right into and did so without indicating. They hit Richard before they reached the street. He remembers the car coming towards him, and then he was out for a few mins (not sure how long exactly – possibly 6-8) and remembers waking up when the ambos were there. What’s so stupid is that if he had of overtaken them on the left (illegally) he would have been fine!

What scares me the most is that these are all the injuries he has received from when he was hit by a car that was going slowly….I’m terrified to think of what he might have been like if they were going faster. I’m trying to not go there, but the mind does what it does. From what we can work out from the information we’ve seen in the TAC claim form, it possibly looks like the driver didn’t stop? We’ll have to see what the police report says. How the hell could you hit someone like that and just drive off? It makes me so mad and scared.

So, I don’t know if any of this is helping me ‘debrief’ from today’s events. Time will tell. I do know that I haven’t really been sleeping tonight and so I thought I’d come down and write about it in an effort to get it all out of my head. I have another day of being strong ahead of me tomorrow. We go and see the hand surgeon at 11, and from there Richard will be admitted to hospital and operated on that afternoon. More fun and games and waiting I’m sure.

The main thing is that Richard is fine (although a little sore) and so am I. I’m exhausted (which explains some of the tears) but fine. I will be strong again tomorrow because that is what is required. But look out on the weekend mum and dad – I’ll be wanting some hugs!

This year is a year of many new beginnings for me. New location, new living arrangements, new course, new friends to make and many new experiences to have. This year I will be completing a Graduate Diploma of Primary Education at RMIT. This will be the 3rd university I’ve been to, so I’m getting used to the way things work! The course is a very full on kind of course and to give an example of this, I’ll be starting placement in a school next week (2nd week of the semester)! We have been warned that this is a very demanding course, and to expect it to be hard. This is not surprising as we’re completing an education degree (normally takes 4 years) into a very packed 4 months. But this is how I wanted to do it – and I think I’ll be needing to remind myself of that throughout the year!

After starting today, I’m rather excited about the course. Which is a good change from last week when I left the orientation day feeling a tad overwhelmed and a little terrified of what was all expected and how soon we need to get a grasp of everything. But I trust the people who are in charge of the course, and I intend to put in the effort to ensure I do the best that I can do. And I KNOW that I can do better than the marks I received throughout my BA. I just need to apply myself more and get started on work early.

I’ve been wanting to be a primary school teacher since year 10, so it’s been a long road to get to where I am now, but everything that I have experienced has made me who I am now – ready to take on the challenge of this year. I’m not sure how often I’ll write anything here, but I’m hoping it will be a bit more than the past few months! Hopefully this will be an outlet for my thinking about what I’ve learnt at uni and also a place to record my growth as I progress through the course.

•  What do you think of stuffed animals as gifts?
  I think they can be nice….assuming they are given for an appropraite occasion and aren’t too outrageous!

• What do you do with a stuffed animal you don’t want?
  I give it away to a hospital or charity so it can be passed on to someone who would appreciate it more than what I currently do! I have recently given away a few bears that I received in my later years of high school that were special to me then, but now are just numbers in the collection! Which is why I’ve given them away.

• What are your thoughts on the whole Beanie Babies craze of the nineties?
  A money-making exercise. They were cute to start with but then there was just too many of them!

• How many stuffed animals do you own?
  Hmmmm….Lex, Humphrey, Justin, and a few more in the cupboard that I want to keep for when I have kids. So basically 3, cos the others don’t count!!!

Had a movie and dinner with Richard and his family last night as his parents have just arrived back from a 3 week trip overseas. That was nice, although all 3 kids are getting rather irritated by their mother at the moment. They can’t work out if it is because she’s more irritating that normal, or if it’s just because they haven’t had to put up with it for 3 weeks! Catherine really isn’t surviving living back at home…and wants to get out of there as soon as she can! So she suggested that the 3 kids plus me, move out and rent a place together! Richard went along with the idea and it seems like it could work. Catherine got all excited about it, I’ve got a few doubts but it is still in the early planning stages yet. Either way, I’m sure i’ll be moving soon due to the rent increase. So Catherine was still quite excited when she got home and started looking on the net at different houses to rent etc and printed off a whole heap. She reminds me a lot of myself actually, gets and idea and goes all gung ho to try and get it to work! Whether this idea will work or not remains to be seen, but hopefully it does, even if it is only 3 of us and not 4.

Health wise I’m surprised at how well I’m doing at the moment. Both Richard and Catherine are sick, and I’m not really! I’ve been around them a bit too, but am still only sneezy. So I’m impressed! I’ll be doing a lot better when all the stress of study is finished!

anyway, back to the study once more! Before Richard picks me up for a roast dinner at his place!

It’s a bunch of random questions from the site http://www.friday5.org/  that are updated each Friday! How about that eh?

So here goes…..

1. What’s your favorite goody at your favorite bakery?
At the moment I think it would have to be the chocolate mini muffins from the bakery across the road from the bus stop! It’s so hard to resist stopping there!

2. Someone’s visiting from out of town and craves something sweet: Where do you take him or her for an experience he or she can’t get at home?
I think the place would HAVE TO BE Krispy Kreme! (given that KK is only in Melbourne and Sydney at the moment) And I’d try and time it right to get an original doughnut hot “off the press”. I had one like that for the first time at Easter and it was just amazing!

3. What’s your favorite order at your favorite ice creamery?
Hmmmm…..I guess I have 3 favourites….Chocolate, Choc Mint and Triple Swirl/Rainbow.

4. Oh no! You forgot to save room for dessert! What dessert item on the menu will you order anyway, because you can’t resist?
Chocolate Pudding!!!! Or Caramel mud cake.

5. You’ve got a craving for sweets, but it’s so late at night that only the corner convenience store is open. What do you get?
Depends what I’m in the mood. It could be chocolate, chips, icecream or an over-priced pack of tim tams!

anyway….that’s all!

Wanna know something that is NOT fun? Getting hit in the face by a frisbee during PE class. It damn well hurt and knocked me around a bit. But i must say that i am disappointed it doesn’t look like it will end up with a great big bruise. It felt like it was heading that way, but there is barely a mark any more. Definately not the best way to start the first day of the week!

back to the essay once more!

It’s a beautiful sunny day here, and i’m inside writing my essay – what fun! I was sitting in the sun earlier today and doing some work….i really do enjoy my sunshine – it’s just bad luck that my little courtyard is now covered in shade otherwise I might still be out there!

3 days until my birthday and I still haven’t really decided what I will be doing to celebrate it. I really should work that out tonight (after I’ve handed in my essay!) and email people to let them know! I think this has been the most indecisive I have been….I really need to make more of an effort to catch up with people. There’s so many that I haven’t seen for age, but at times it feels like it’s just me doing the reaching out all the time, and I get tired of that pretty quickly….

anyway…………back to this darn essay! But at least I have some good music to keep my company. I’ve got the soundtracks to “Rent” and “The Last 5 years” playing on my computer. Suprisingly, I am getting a fair bit of work done while singing along!