so many thoughts……

I really should be studying at the moment but I’ve had enough! By next Friday I *should* be all done but knowing me, I probably won’t! I have an essay that was due on Monday (shhh!) that I’m still struggling with, and then next Friday I have an exam and a report due – both for the same subject. So, theoretically it should get easier if I can do this essay but it’s just so complicated! To be honest, I’m not really sure how I’m going to do in that subject. I really need to do a decent job in this essay so I can pass. Not the greatest feeling in the world to be having! I am so good at distracting myself these days that it is just not funny! Really annoying in fact – knowing that I have so little work to do until I’m on holidays, and even then I still can’t apply myself!

I’m also househunting at the moment for another place to rent as the place I’m in at the moment – while it’s awesome, it is just waaaay too expensive for a student. Serves me right for renting a place when I started working based on my budget then! It gets kind of disheartening at times to be continually looking at places on the net, then ringing the real estate agent to find out that the house* is no longer available. (*Please note that when i say house, I am usually referring to a unit or flat – it’s all the same to me!) So I’ve been procrastinating with looking for places which only results in me being MORE unenthused to do any further study! Horrible cycle it is!

In my procrastination and cleaning up yesterday, I was looking at the education section of the jobs that were in The Age on Saturday when I came across some jobs that really sounded like something I could do….IN THE FUTURE! So not a real help now….dammit! Then when I got back to my computer, my procrastination continued with me looking at the Education Dept website and the online recruitment section. That’s when I found a job that I could do NOW! So I’m kind of thinking about that and trying to work out what I want to do. I’m sure it’ll all work out in the end!

But I just soo want to be done with study so that I can have a life again! One that is not consumed by study all the time! I also need to clean out my place – not just because I’m moving but because I’m starting to accumulate so much junk! And I’ve only been here for 2 years!

*sigh* so much to do….so little time…… But the weather is getting warmer now, and we’re on daylight savings time and it makes all the difference! 🙂

And don’t you just hate it when you’re waiting for an email and it never seems to come?? So annoying! And it doesn’t help that I’m impatient either!!